3:44 a.m - Night One

night shift...again...i didn't sleep at all today, so i am surprised that I am even conscious. maybe it was that quadruple shot latte i had at 7:00 from starbucks...i should try that again. my eyes are burning from my contacts...maybe next time i will bring my case & solution and my glasses...

anywho, i am glad to be back in the CICU. it was a good environment for me to learn in. one of the nurses is going try and get me in on a case with one of the surgeons...that would be awesome! it's quite most of the time, except for the occasional alarms & whatnot...

i am ready for school.. i am ready to have my second chance at making a life & career for myself. i have wasted so many opportunities because it was hard and i gave up...well not this time gosh darnit!! i refuse to give up! no matter how hard it will be, i will not give into the stress. this time around i know what i can eliminate from my schedule and get my priorities straight...I am freakin 31 years old and it's about time i grew up and became an adult.

good morning!