some people or situations just bring out habits you wish would just die. it's so hard to lead a christian lifestyle around them. no matter how much you tell yourself "what kind of example do you want to be tonight?" the old you just resurfaces like you never washed it away...it's like a stain that comes back even though you have bleached it out. it haunts you.
somewhere in my heart of hearts i know that i do not want that lifestyle anymore and that I "old Susan" died the moment i got baptized....well at least it should have been. it all comes down to choices, but when you are caught up in the moment, the wrong choice seems like the right choice at the time when you absolutely know it's the wrong choice. it's like that chapter in Romans where Paul talks about doing what he's not supposed to and not doing what he's supposed to do (Romans 7:15-25)
ok..wow...i was just looking up that portion of romans and was directly brought to Romans 6 - dead to sin, alive in christ.
anyway, so that's been my conviction this weekend..it's been a struggle lately.
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