December 19, 2008

this day is D-F day...meaning Debt Free day!! This is a day that I have waited around for for 10 years!!! 10 years of bondage and struggling to pay debts and being late and having that uncomfortable call from credit card companies...that is the worst feeling in the world. I hope that you don't have to go through that. I hope that I will NEVER have to be under this kind of slavery again...well accept maybe house and car. But now I have learned from my parents and some really good friends and Dave Ramsey, of course, that you can be financially confident. This is such a huge weight to have to bare. sometimes i felt like even God couldn't take it away from me. But he has given me skills and i have learned that i have a fighting spirit and more motivation to get rid of a lot of garbage that i have held on to the past 10 years.
I will be celebrating that day! What a great way to start off 2009!

Wednesday is whatevs day

i feel lonely at work....almost all the time. i keep to myself b/c i don't want to talk about anything b/c i know how this place is about folks. i don't want to talk about school, my life or anything..is that bad since most of your life is spent at work......i was just given more responsibility here at work. I will be scheduling for all of cornea...which is great that i am getting more responsibility....but there is that part of me that wonders if i should stay. i want to go back to school b/c i am too smart and i worked to hard to earn my degree to settle for $12/hour!!!! i am making as much as someone with a freaking HS diploma...what's up with that?
maybe God is trying to humble me with little because He knows i can't be responsible with a lot just yet.

God Is There

I pulled this from one of my favorite sites - Stuff Christians Like. I really dig this guy's writing. This post really spoke to me today because I feel like this way too often in my life. I know I am a Christian and I know the Holy Spirit lives inside my heart and I know that God is everywhere all the time (psalm 139), but there are sometimes where I do doubt that God is seeing the things that I do, whether good or bad. Thanks Jon for having such a great site....sarcasm and scripture!
"All too often, I am a two-year old closing my eyes. I am a child misbehaving. I am a toddler that thinks that as soon as I mess up and my little world goes dark with sin and I feel that I can no longer see God, that He can no longer see me. The moment I make a decision that shuts Him out, He does the same to me. When I can't see Him, He can't see me.Job deals with this in chapter 23, verse 9. In the midst of everything that happens to him, he admits:When he is at work in the north, I do not see him; when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him.I like that. I like that Job admits that he doesn't see God right now. Sometimes people try to make you feel guilty that you don't "feel led" in a certain direction by God. That despite trying your best, in the north and the south you catch no glimpse of God and that is a failure. But Job knows it's not about that. Job knows that our ability to see God is not the litmus test to prove if God is there or not. In verse 10 he says,But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.God sees me. When I am filthy and covered with bad life decisions, He sees me. When I have dug deep pits and have stayed there so long that they have started rerouting my mail to the pit, He sees me. When I succeed and celebrate, He sees me. When I am good or bad or stuck believing that life is about being good or bad, He sees me.And even if I don't see him, that doesn't mean He is gone. He is in the north. He is in the south. And at some point, I will come forth as gold."

viewpoints 6/16/2008

*how many times a week do you go to starbucks to where people know your name and what you order? friday 6/13 7:35 a.m

*when you don't get a lot of sleep, you get stupid. all weekend

*there are people out there who make comments to someone that hurts their feelings and that person will never know. sunday 6/15 7:45 p.m.

*i love my parents with all my heart. they are the two greatest people i know. sunday 6/15 3:00 p.m.

life is good

work

just really one comment today:

working where I do is kind of like living in an extremely small town or high school...everyone knows everyones business and people take things so personally...gossip is like breathing to these people...this is why i don't talk to folks here or try not to get caught up in he said/she said bull..it's so disheartening when I see grown women play games and talk about each other..it's like high school never ended.
do women ever break out of that habit?

office moving

so the doctor's office i work for is going to be moving by november 15th.....to Cumberland Pkwy...since i am moving back home for a few months while I get debt free/go back to school., it's going to be miserable driving 285 everyday...really hoping i get in spring semester..but things might be changing here at the office. i may have a new responsibility, which is way cool..to be continued. i am going to apply anyway and see what happens on either end.
i am trying to not let the devil convince me that I am a loser for moving back home. i am trying not to let him convince me that no one will want to date a 31 yr old woman that lives in her parent's basement..i am trying to convince myself that it's for the greater good of my mental health and that it's only temporary.

weekend update

* i hung out with some really cool people on Friday night. I went walking with a girl I recently met from Fusion/Waumba Land. She seems really cool. Then we went to eat mexican with about 10 other people..one of them being this really good looking guy who shall remain nameless for the time being. I think I would like to get to know him better...more on a spiritual level.

*Saturday I worked, of course..it's been really tiring lately working 2 jobs, but I know that in the end it will ultimately pay off because I am going to be debt free by the end of the year!!!! I am having a party the day that it happens. Then I hung out with my two favoritest people, Lauren & Autumn. I would consider them my two best friends. I am missing the 3rd b/c she is in Minnesota.

*Sunday was Waumba Land/Church as usual. Had lunch with Mom, which was nice, then went to Barnes & Noble..which was a great way to relax and cool off.

Even though I feel like I am on the outer ring of hell b/c it's so hot here in the ATL, that's ok because I am breathing and I have come to realize that I have a great life.

Viewpoints - Braves Game 6/4/2008

* guy with 'fromullet, cut-off jean shorts, a red wife-beater tank top & L. A. Gears - I really wish i had a photo of this

*too many girls dressed up - what's up with sparkle tank tops and having your hair done like you're about to walk down the aisle?

*The Ted charges you the same price for a CUP OF ICE as a coke

viewpoints of my surroundings

*it is freaking HOT...already

*some women in atlanta need learn how dress...meaning wear the correct color bra under a white shirt...but some could start by wearing a bra...come on...NO ONE wants to see that!!

*gas prices stink in the city

*the skyline is completely beautiful at night in the summertime

*i have the best girlfriends ever

*God is extremely creative

*meeting new people rocks